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Worthless
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I know how you feel. I'm with you on this one. Parents suck. They just don't realize what they have until it's gone.[SecretHarboring]
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2008-11-30 13:35:01 |
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Depression
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I hope that you don't feel this way. I don't even know how to say what I want to say. I truly hope that if you are feeling this way that you will find someone to talk to. there are always people out there willing to listen. I will listen. your entry made me want to cry. Please don't hurt anymore.
[Buffaly]
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2008-11-24 12:55:17 |
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I miss you so much sis[InsaneAngel]
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2008-09-06 04:42:03 |
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nameless
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that is a really good poem[megag15]
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2008-08-28 12:09:17 |
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nameless
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that is a really good poem[megag15]
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2008-08-28 12:09:17 |
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When I die
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weee I love you so much sis :) your the one good thing in my life. I will alwayse be here for you, remember that :D see you around ;) [InsaneAngel]
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2008-05-07 13:06:06 |
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A Room
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your poems are amazing. all of them. i can relate to many of them <3 im K.T. [ktpisces09]
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2008-05-01 08:58:09 |
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When I die
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thank you for commenting... and i agree with you... friendship is more inportant then anything.  . I really like your poem[ellesayshi]
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2008-04-29 16:33:12 |
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Remembrance
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wow. you are a really great writer. This poem is amazing!!! [ellesayshi]
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2008-04-27 11:57:49 |
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what school are you going to then? ssh?[Miw]
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2006-07-27 14:13:22 |
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LOVE YOU SIS!!!! [InsaneAngel]
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2006-05-12 04:38:52 |
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LOVE YOU SIS!!!![InsaneAngel]
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2006-05-12 04:38:52 |
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Poetry
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hey Sis... This is my new Name... I Just love you so much... Your sis Monica..[InsaneAngel]
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2005-07-14 08:21:40 |
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Poetry
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wow...those were really good...i wish i could write like that...lol..but, seriously, that was really good...i've never read any of your other poems, but i can tell that you're really talented...keep it up... alex [darkangelwithnowings]
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2005-07-07 05:44:10 |
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Commandments?!
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Kay...my dearest, precious Kay...where have you been?! i miss you! you should come back sometime n grace me with your presence. it's been far too long! i love you baby! *hugs* [spyder byte]
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2003-11-10 00:22:37 |
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Commandments?!
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I'd just like to say well done for taking a stand against religion with so many 'believers' around here. You'll see in my diaries I'm very anti-religion myself. It's about time people started taking responsibility into their own hands..if people started doing something rather than praying to god or blaming everything wrong thet do on the devil, well, the world would be a much better place. I wont even go into the oppression, suffering and death religion has caused through the years. So once again, well done, and keep up the good entries. [Mascatarma]
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2003-10-26 13:42:33 |
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Commandments?!
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I see you don't believe in god or his message. Fine, you have free will of choice, but why is it you are so fervent about convincing others that you are right? Is it for their benefit or your own? [LostInThePast]
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2003-10-22 21:08:26 |
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What Makes You So Damned Special?
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Glad to know there's someone out there with intelligence:)Thanks for commenting on my diary also. [NeedAnAngel]
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2003-10-18 14:11:02 |
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What Makes You So Damned Special?
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In answer to your question: Yes, I really am worth keeping alive. I'm sure I'm supposed to so the morally right thing here and say 'all people have a right to a life' but I find myself saying 'screw that!' In other, far simpler words, I agree. Problem is, what can we do when we find ourselves swamped down in the shit? When you're so completely surrounded that it seems the only way is down? Actually, I don't want an answer to that. I'm not going down and I find staying afloat quite easy. In fact I think I just took off. I don't think that comment made much sense, but such is life! [Mascatarma]
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2003-10-16 13:27:57 |
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don´t wanna lose my grip on the world, but I am
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i love you Kay. i'm sorry it's so hard for you. you know what's kinda crazy? when you feel bad..in some way...i feel guilty, like i've failed you, let you down. i can't stand to see you hurt. it truly does hurt. you know i love you and i will until the day i die, and even then i won't stop. you have to hang on because...no one can ever REALLY know what the future holds, even if you see it as bleak and meaningless, empty and full of holes..because...we just don't know Kay. someday, i hope to meet you. i will hug you tight and hold you and tell you it'll be okay, then i can show you that i mean it, that i won't hurt you, that i truly love you and only want good things to happen to you. things can get better, you have to believe they can. i will try my best to help, as soon as i'm off these fucked up meds i know things'll get better. i stumble, often, and i fall, and i get hurt, and i get more scars, but i always get up...always. and you do to. you never give up. that's what i love about you Kay. you don't give up! i know sometimes you feel that you do, or that you want to, but you don't. we've come this far, we've come TOO far...to let it all go now without waiting just a little longer for things to start going better. i swear that when we meet, i will do whatever i possibly can to take away any amount of pain that you're feeling, any amount that you've felt. i want you to be happy...i want you to know what is is. i want you to feel loved and BE loved. i love you. truly, i do. *hugs* take care of yourself sweetie. know that some crazy psycho in a little place called Presque Isle in the great state of Wisconsin loves you and always will. =) ♥ Sarah [spyder byte]
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2003-10-13 00:48:24 |
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Voices in my mind
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i'm sorry i'm not around much for you anymore. i love you. i love you...and i always will. [spyder byte]
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2003-10-11 17:01:28 |
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me writting about the people I love
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eh..that was me. i jus forgot to log in. lol [spyder byte]
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2003-08-28 19:11:32 |
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me writting about the people I love
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-*smiles big*- Kay you have to always remember this. when i say this, i mean these things you wrote about. you've obviously touched people's lives [like mine!] the way they've touched yours. thanks for explaining about Claudia. lol i'd be lost forever. -*big hugz*- thanks for everything you've done for me, ya know, all the emotional support :-P thanks for being such a good friend, thanks for everything. thanks, especially, for just being you. i love you Kay. [.s.a.R.a.h.] [Anonymous]
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2003-08-28 19:05:46 |
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writting about the people I care about.
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Yes... I know that there are some few errors in my spelling *L* it happens when I write to fast, and forgets to check up on it afterwards :-s [Tristiana]
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2003-08-28 15:21:53 |
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what is the point in living???
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ignore that sick twiztid freak who commented before me. Kay i don't know what i could possibly ever tell you to make you want to live a second longer. i can't make you do anything. but you should know what i WANT you to do. keep trying to figure it out. keep going. i know it sounds so hard, probably a lot harder than i even know, but i don't know what i'd do without you. i'm almost in tears Kay. the thought of losing you is so unbearable...i'm not saying this stuff to make you feel guilty. i want you to get help. you're such a beautiful person..and your talent of writing is sooo amazing..if this entry hadn't been so sad, i'd prolly print it off and show everyone because your writing is so descriptive, deep, powerful, moving, and beautiful...it's so beautiful Kay. you know everyday i think "i'm so lucky to know someone like her." and it's true. i am lucky. you're a great friend. there hasn't been a time since i've known you that you've let me down, and if i fail now, i'll never be able to live with myself knowing I let YOU down. i don't see how anyone could bear even the thought of it. the people that hurt you are only people who are weaker than you because they see you as a threat somehow, they see how talented and wonderful and amazing you are and they get jealous. they know you're stronger than them, too, and they know that by hurting you, they'll feed their own insecurities and feel you're the weak one. but you're not. it's not a bad thing to trust people. there are just bad people who take advantage of others and manipulate them. Kay..you know i'd never in my lifetime even think of doing that to you. and i know i'm not the only one who wouldn't. right now i wish i could hold you and tell you to trust me, that i would do anything humanly possible to protect you from everyone's lies and insecurities. until i can do that for you Kay, you have to keep being strong. oh, i was going to ask you about the Claudia thing...if you don't want to share, that's okay. but please Kay..don't leave me forever. i love you. don't forget that. i love you. -*tight hugz*- [.s.a.R.a.h.] [spyder byte]
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2003-08-27 17:42:57 |
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I want him out of my head
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hello my lovely. perhaps some day we shall meet and i can give you the biggest hug ever...a hug that you need and deserve. i know what you're going through is hard, but it's not impossible to overcome it. i will be here for you every step of the way whether you need me or not. i love you very much Kay and i would do anything, give anything to see you happy. -*hugz*- take care of yourself sweetie and know that i would never leave you. [.s.a.R.a.h.] [spyder byte]
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2003-08-24 18:26:38 |
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I want him out of my head
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hey masked friend .. i connected to what u wrote instantly because i face the same problems .. i envy u for the presence of sara in ur life and wish for a sara of my own .. to help me get through my days .. its f***ing hard to be us .. no one would understand .. not even ourselves .. - twisted mE [Anonymous]
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2003-08-23 16:58:44 |
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I want him out of my head
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by the way, my favourite this time was Paintbrush [spyder byte]
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2003-08-21 11:03:24 |
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I want him out of my head
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Kay, it was good to hear that maybe i am one of the reasons you're still breathing...maybe that'll make it a lot easier for me to hold on. you understand that i'd never be able to leave knowing that i'd be hurting you. i'm glad we've found each others diaries and have been able to shed some light and hope into each other's lives. maybe one day we'll forgive the past and be happy, most of all you because you deserve it so much. you have a lot to give and it's sad to know that you have to hide yourself..because i don't see anything at all about you that should be hidden. -*big hugz*- i love you Kay. stay strong through this all and maybe we'll be alright in the end. ♥ Sarah [spyder byte]
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2003-08-21 11:02:21 |
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I want him out of my head
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i welcome u dear stranger to my life ... - twisted mE [mad poet head]
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2003-08-19 05:31:13 |
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Now I Know I am going crazy!!
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Kay...i like the first one and Lady of Darkness the most. Hannah and i are planning on running away..it hurts so much to be here. do you want to come with? maybe we'll break the monotony and hell of everyday life...i really want to...if Hannah bails..i still will...would you? i love you Kay. please don't forget that. you're strong, i know you are. you're strong and beautiful. and you have someone that loves you and cares about you. please don't die on me. i'm reading this book now called Smack, and there's one part that's neat. it's kinda long, but i'll show it to you anyway: "Remember when you were little and they used to say "Naughty girl, naughty boy," because you broke something or said the wrong thing? They told you, "You are a bad person." But it wasn't like that, it was just you were doing a bad thing. It wasn't you who was bad. You're beautiful. You're wonderful and everything that you do is wonderful because it's you doing it. You're that strong. You can do it bad and know it bad or you can do it good and know it good but it doesn't do anything to you. You're still you. Listen. You can be anything you want to be. Be careful. It's a spell. It's magic. Listen to the words. You can be anything, you can do anything, you can be anything, you can do anything. Listen to the magic. You are anything...everyone, anyone. Whatever you want. I'm showing you. So long as you stay yourself inside, you can eat dirt and it'll taste good because it's you that's eating it. You can even lick their arses if you have to. You listen to them, teachers, parents, politicians. They're always saying, if you steal you're a theif, if you sleep around you're a slut, if you take drugs you're a junkie. They want to get inside your head and control you with their fear. Maybe you think your mum and dad love you but if you do the wrong things they'll try and turn you into dirt, just like mine tried to turn me into dirt. It's your punishment for being you. Don't play their game. Nothing can touch you; you stay beautiful." well..i love you.. ♥ sarah [spyder byte]
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2003-08-15 23:08:30 |
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Black thoughts from a sick mind
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as usual, i love your poems. they're...melodic almost. hypnotizing. they paint gory murals in my mind. :-P Kay, thanks. you always make me smile. haha. for some weird reason, that 98 Degrees song just popped into my head: "you're my sunshine after the rain, you're the cure against my fear and my pain, i'm losing my mind when you're not around, it's all, it's all, it's all because of you." i THINK that's how it goes. -*shrugs*- take care babe. i love you! -*hugz*- ♥ Sarah [spyder byte]
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2003-08-06 12:52:35 |
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It´s all for you SpyderByte
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Kay, i love you. i can never tell you that enough. and i'm so sorry i haven't been there for you nearly as much as i should have been. i feel as if i'm falling back into the darkness when it seems i've been doing so well pulling myself out of it [with your help!]. i don't know what it is about life that has to hurt so much, i just wish life had never hurt you. regardless i will always be here. through rain or shine, good days, bad days..whatever life brings..i will never leave you. never Kay. i'm so glad i could bring some sort of light into your life..you'll never truly know how much that means and how much you've done for me in return. -*hugz*- forever, for always, i'll be with you. i love you. take care of yourself. -Sarah [spyder byte]
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2003-08-01 17:50:21 |
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It´s all for you SpyderByte
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Hey, we all know MDD is dying. Before it actually does, go to http://www.xanga.com/blogrings/b logring.aspid=102030and join other MDD members!! [Anonymous]
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2003-07-28 17:16:37 |
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It´s all for you SpyderByte
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Sara is Lucky she got you. [Emotion_Sickness]
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2003-07-28 15:54:40 |
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Please help me someone - I can´t bear the pain
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Kay, you're never alone either hun. you know i'd never leave you or hurt you in anyway. and if i ever do, then may someone hunt me down and kill me because i'd never be able to live with myself. you're a light in my life and i love you and care about you a lot. you're a good person [yes you are so don't argue with me damnit] and you're talented. i've probably said that before, but it's true. in darkness together we shall move forward, and hopefully someday this will all just be a distant past. i watched Red Dragon the other night and one of the things that really caught my ear was when Hannibal said, "Our scars have the power to remind us that the past was real." and we'll be much more alive than most other people who only wish they had lived and done more. anywayz, i love you Kay. thanks for your comments. you always make me smile, even in the saddest of times. -*hugz*- take care babe. ♥ Sarah [spyder byte]
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2003-07-27 15:22:58 |
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Can´t I just Die???
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have you posted this before? or did i read it once and just never comment!? whatever the case, i still think your writing is beautiful. the only problem is the undertone that i know that's how you really feel and you wish that you could escape it but can't. :-( i can't make an escape for you, although i wish i could. you know i'd take all of your pain because you deserve to be happy. you DESERVE to be happy. sorry it took me so long to comment, i didn't know MDD was back up and it's now 11:42 p.m. on Thursday. my eyes are closing so i'll end this now with: i love you Kay. please hold on. things will get better..oh by the way, that story about the girl looking into the mirror talking about the Jabberwocky..i loved it. it was very..sad. either way, stay strong. i love you and i'll be here for you forever. -*hugz tight*- [.s.a.R.a.h.] [spyder byte]
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2003-07-24 23:41:20 |
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just deal with it Kay
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i find myself thinking of you as a priority, perhaps the only one i have. anyway, as long as no one knows, consider yourself safe. safe from the prying, the questions, your tears and lies, their fake sympathy. why is nothing ever fair. here, i wrote something last night::when your world is a black hell ruled by depression, the little bit of light that filters in is usually stifled by doubt, fear, or distrust. anger, sadness, pain, sorrow, and anguish control you, paralyze you. they choke you with false hopes, lies, and deceit. your eyes are blind to what befalls you; you can touch only that which you see. it's how you know you're real when the sharp bite comes and salt is poured in the wound. strawberry pain takes over and relief soon follows. a numbing calm is the facade behind which lies the details from the bigger picture. but certain times, times which are rare, happening perhaps once at the most, the light breaks through. the demons of your past and present scream and scamper to the dark corners as the light penetrates and scorches their heathen bodies. they tear at their skin much as you would do if parasites slithered beneath your very flesh. your eyes are dry; the crimson stops. you no longer feel the numbing pain. your sight is restored and you can feel once again. you have a purpose. you feel real without needing to feel the cold metal pinch your flesh and cut lines around your veins. you feel complete, whole; you are a human once again. you are no longer a horrible thing that brings only pain and misery to others. you show them happiness, give them hope and motivation, give them your love, trust, care, and support. you'd give anything at all, including your own life, just so long as they wouldn't suffer, feel pain, darkness, betrayal, or death. you love them unconditionally regardless of their flaws or yours. you trust again because they've made you see that it's okay to.:: fun stuff, huh? -*hugz*- take care of yourself hun. ♥ Sarah [spyder byte]
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2003-07-08 20:20:24 |
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How I Feel..... Does it even matter??
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and yes, it does matter how you feel. you have more value than most people i know all put together. [spyder byte]
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2003-07-04 15:54:11 |
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How I Feel..... Does it even matter??
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Kay, i think i cried more than once reading this entry. we are the same in some ways. the feeling that you have to punish yourself, even if you didn't really do anything wrong. i lay in bed last night and i jus cried thinking of how horrible and shitty i must make the people i care about feel. no matter how hard i try, i still think that the people i love jus say they love me to hurt me later on. it feels hopeless, but i know there has to be a way to change it, to get proof that that's not going to happen. about when you were younger, you said they were awful kids, and that's exactly what they are: AWFUL KIDS. you didn't do anything to deserve the things they said to you. it's weird, i can deal with the thought of my own suicide, it doesn't bother me all too much, but when i read about my friends wanting to kill themselves, it jus flips on this red switch that says you have to help them, try to save them somehow. and it's hard to do because i don't know what i could ever say to change your mind about it, and it's really scary to tell you the truth. no matter what though Kay, know that you're not a bad person. bad things have happened to you, bad, terrible things that you in no way at all deserved. if you want to see yourself through someone else's eyes, see through mine because they see you as a great person who is caring but confused and hurt. and if i can help you in any way, at any time, please, never hesitate to ask me. i have to do something because you DO NOT DESERVE TO FEEL THIS PAIN! keep your chin up, you can never spell "hopeless" without "hope." -*hugz*- try to take care. i love you. ♥ Sarah [spyder byte]
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2003-07-04 15:53:03 |
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just another night in my eyes
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thanks for the comment in my diary...i really hope you start feeling better soon........well thanks again.later * see you in your dreams * [BLooD ToRN FrEAk]
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2003-07-02 13:40:34 |
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just another night in my eyes
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-*hugz*- don't worry, i'm a lil crazy, too. i wrote you an entry in my diary, i tried to leave it as a comment but my power went out before i could hit "Add My Note." take care, okay?? [spyder byte]
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2003-07-02 10:19:32 |
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just another night in my eyes
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Hey, I too have shared many depressing periods in my life..I got to reading your entries when I saw the title for your diary (Fuck the Human Race). And I believe strongly in that...'Cuz well everyone has lost touch with their inner-self (Well most of everyone) and just don't give a shit anymore about how other people feel...I really hope that something comes along in your life and brightens it, Because it upsets me to see someone, so smart as yourself to wish for death or anything..Must sound kinda weird..But yeah..Well I have to go..I'll continue to read your entries and comment on them..and just try and show you that there are people who care...Later [MisanthropicDespise]
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2003-07-02 07:19:16 |
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just another night in my eyes
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I love the way you write, on another note it's very depressing however. What's the reason for you being so sad? I wish there was somehting I could say but I'm never very good at these things, if ya ever need to talk..lotsa lv xxx [love is suicide]
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2003-07-02 07:15:20 |
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You Belong In Hell b****
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Kaaaaaaayyyyy! where are you!? [spyder byte]
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2003-07-01 21:41:25 |
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You Belong In Hell b****
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hi. i'm Angel. are you saying you were abused? i am by my boyfriend. are you a boy or a girl? if you need someone to talk to, i am here. Angel [angelina254]
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2003-06-30 19:31:09 |
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You Belong In Hell b****
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aww. you're not bad. and from what i've read you're definitely not stupid. why dirty!? sometimes it seems we don't make the right decisions, but they've already been made so you can't go back and change them, which really sucks..but i guess that's life. it'll fuk everyone eventually. i know i don't know you too well, but i love you as a friend anyway. i love reading your entries. you're one of the most interesting people on this site! you don't deserve to die. most people do, but you don't. by the way, i do have messengers. i have MSN and AIM. my AIM name is fReAkShOwAmErPsY and my MSN is sarahjuana16_2000@hotmail.com. i hope to talk to you soon. ♥spyder [spyder byte]
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2003-06-30 19:28:55 |
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The Return
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It was a good thing what I was trying to say. My apologies if I didn't word it right. [LiePot]
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2003-06-29 19:41:08 |
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The Return
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did you take Dante's Inferno Test? you should take it...it said i'm going to be banished to the 7th layer of hell. hehe. sucks to miss people, eh? guess what? i got new earrings today. fascinating, i know. to do the heart, type & hearts ; but put it all together so the & is touching the word hearts and so ; is touching it too...uhm..did that make sense? o.o then i just add a lil colour, and toodah!: ♥ :-P well talk to ya later. take care! [spyder byte]
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2003-06-29 19:31:35 |
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The Return
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by the way, i took that test, too. this is what i got:
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
i deleted all those "click for info" thingerz..they get annoying! what is histrionic anyway? [spyder byte]
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2003-06-29 00:06:37 |
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The Return
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you make me want to hug you. you say things that i don't know how to. in response to your question, yes i miss Fil a lot. when i didn't see him, i felt like i was dying, losing the most important part of myself, forcing me into making the hardest decision so far in my life. now without him, it feels the same way, but getting worse. it jus eats at me constantly and i wish i could go back in time and erase what i've done...but i can't. other people tell me they want to be in a relationship with me, that they'll be there for me..but it jus isn't the same. you want to know something that's almost scary? in my diary, you said "they would have so have a twisted mind, be a witch, a satanist, and a wannabe wampire"...you remind me exactly of Fil. we always had those conversations about God and all that..and i remember him telling me one time that he had a vampire baptism..something like that. i think a lot of people fantasize about being a vampire, but i don't think a lot of people would actually jump on the opportunity to be one. people talk a lot and never say what they mean. people are stupid and should burn in hell. well, no they shouldn't because if there is a hell, i'm going there and i really don't want to put up with that any more. okay i will stop bothering you. :-P take care. ♥ spyder [spyder byte]
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2003-06-28 18:18:00 |
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¤REASONS¤
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i don't even know what to say because i agree with it. especially the god part. the earth is a bitter and hating place, but i've found some people kinda like me and it's a little easier to cope. i know that i'm not alone now, although sometimes it's nice to be. anyway, my web has currently been destroyed by complications, soon though, soon...heh and you said you're my willing prey? i'll seek you out soon enough. but until then, take care. ♥ spyder [spyder byte]
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2003-06-27 19:06:29 |
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¤REASONS¤
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In one way, you kinda freak me out. Yet, in another way, you interest me very much. I've only read the last five or so of your entry's but I'm hooked. Maybe your saying what others want to say? Maybe your saying what no one wants to say? I dun know. It's just .... well, I'm reading. [LiePot]
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2003-06-27 09:33:52 |
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just some thoughts from me.....
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Hey those were good!!! [NoSpecialGirl]
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2003-06-25 21:14:56 |
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It's amazing how you manage to write exactly what I'm feeling...this piece described perfectly what I was going through last night...you're an awesome writer. ~*B*~ [KillerQueen]
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2003-06-21 13:23:03 |
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Hell In Me
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hello again. if i byte, it's only cuz i like ya ;-) once again, these poems are really good. i think the first one was my favourite, then the last one, then the middle one. but..the first one was the best!!! -*hugz*- take care of yourself babe. ♥ Sarah [spyder byte]
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2003-06-20 22:46:07 |
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Hell In Me
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omg those poems were relly relly good! except for being a lil sad...i was and i hope and i pray that u cheer up n i kno its hard but i believe one day you will be ok again [pats4eva7]
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2003-06-20 21:33:52 |
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Hell In Me
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I really liked these poems. You're extremely talented. [KillerQueen]
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2003-06-18 11:43:59 |
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just me
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Yes, Lestat is a great book. almost all of Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles are. Like the poem. Take care! [queenofvampyres]
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2003-06-17 14:29:23 |
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just me
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yes, i am a very nice, lovely spyder -*flutters eyelashes*- lol..don't be afraid to enter the darkness. immortality isn't all that scary..once you get used to it. hehe. welpz..imma go now..hehe -*hugz*- ♥ Sarah [spyder byte]
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2003-06-16 22:10:05 |
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just me
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wow! i really liked this!!!! the whole thing was good..-*speechless!*- <-- that doesn't happen often! i especially liked this part:
no one else will treat me kind
except the cannibal in my mind
i saw you love
i saw you cry
but i ate your dove and watched you die
i am a garden of chaos and bliss
-*applauds*- hehe. well, anywho, i wanted to thank you for caring about me :.D and if you ever need me, you know where i'll be. jus look for the cobweb under the staircase ;.) hehe -*hugz*- keep up the good writing ♥ Sarah [spyder byte]
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2003-06-15 17:31:46 |
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Don’t talk to me
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I do. I know exactly how you feel I was there for the longest time that it feels thats all ive ever known. I did have all my innocence taken away from me..it felt like I had to grow up so fast and didnt have time to enjoy being a kid. I didnt want people to quote scripture to me or talk about Christ to me either b/c to me He did that to me and He had all that power to make me hurt He had the power to take it away. I didnt know why He didnt. I didnt know what I did to deserves punishment like that I thought God hated me and wanted me to suffer. But I realaized He cant make it better for us, thats up to us. In order to be alright again you have to want it. But the problem with "insanity" or so I call it is that secretly you dont want to get help and you like being in the darkness, anyone who is like me and denys they want it is a liar. All im saying is that just dont give up on God and always believe in a place better then the one youre in coz one like that does exsist. [pats4eva7]
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2003-06-15 12:18:10 |
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Don’t talk to me
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My comment was sarcastic. Not without sympathy, though. [Whydowedothem]
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2003-06-15 10:27:28 |
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Maybe,.....
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Cutting, like anorexia, is something I just don't understand. I want to keep my blood inside of my body! I can't imagine deliberately cutting myself. I have a cousin who was doing this. [Whydowedothem]
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2003-06-15 09:57:14 |
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Don’t talk to me
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Now there's an uplifting entry! [Whydowedothem]
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2003-06-15 09:54:27 |
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Maybe,.....
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Thanks for the advice.I really needed that. [ALUV]
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2003-06-13 18:43:00 |
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Maybe,.....
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I feel the same way right about now. [ALUV]
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2003-06-13 17:00:58 |
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SELF Punishment
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hello, read your entry on "self punishment"..thanks for writing out all my deepest thoughts.sometimes others don't understand how draining and weary it is to constantly feel the way we do..and while we keep hoping for the day or somebody to release us from it all,deep inside we know that perhaps we can only help ourselves..but we know we can't do it... [jo leigh]
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2003-06-09 12:30:46 |
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something evil in me
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wow...really leaves u thinking huh? [wilted_rose]
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2003-06-09 12:15:54 |
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Shaitan...... Tempt Me...
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that's really scary! you gotta tell someone bout that..that's jus a lil too freakily. Fil and i can make you a child of the darkness, and together we'll scorn the world. how about it? keep your head down, the sun burns. -*hugz*- [.s.a.R.a.h.] [spyder byte]
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2003-06-08 18:29:20 |
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N/A
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i like this. it's really well written. it does hurt to miss someone so bad. thanks for commenting my diary. i'll try to post a longer note next time. [.s.a.R.a.h.] [spyder byte]
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2003-06-06 19:54:32 |
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N/A
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Take good care of yourself, cause no one else will. Love thy self! [Clueless467]
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2003-05-16 15:13:18 |
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Hope and Loathing
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i liked that one reminds me of someone i once knew. [flarestar]
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2003-04-27 15:15:49 |
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Today
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I dunno what else to say except that was very good and i really liked it. [deadly delinquint]
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2003-04-21 11:54:59 |
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Broken Angel
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wow that was superb i give u a standing ovation and a high 5. You are very talented but ims ure uve heard that before [Carrion for Fairies]
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2003-04-21 10:21:51 |
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Broken Angel
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wow that was superb i give u a standing ovation and a high 5. You are very talented but ims ure uve heard that before [Carrion for Fairies]
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2003-04-21 10:21:31 |
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WhY Do I StAy?
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Hi. Im melyssa. I read a few of your entries and i just started to cry, because I understand because I feel what you feel, I know what the pain feels like. I'd like to talk to you, maybe since im not as far down my hell as you maybe talking 2 someone like me would help. Think about it and email me at virgo614@aol.com. Thanks [pats4eva7]
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2003-04-07 14:06:23 |
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f*** it all
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Hello there... Yes, thalidomide was a drug administered to pregnant women! I'm impressed! Hehe... not very many people know what it is. I am sorry that you feel this way... I used to contemplate suicide over and over, and I attempted it once, two years ago... swallowed a bunch of pills. Nothing happened, and I lay in bed the next day, barely able to move because my body was overcome with cramps... not appealing, is it? Please don't hurt yourself... I remember reading your friend "Miw"s diary, and obviously she loves you... she wrote an entry about you and her other friend!! I cut before, and stopped when someone told me that when I cut, I am being selfish, because at that moment, I have nothing on my mind other than myself and how *I* feel... I hope that it will help you too... If you need anyone to talk to, I'm here... eminem_girl13@yahoo.com. Feel better soon! =) [Thalidomide_Waste]
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2003-04-05 07:59:47 |
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Why am I left to be like this
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I don't have the answers to your questions, or your problems. You are the one who has them. Cutting is the best thing you have now to help you survive, but, look at how strong you are, you are surviving. Lets turn this round, it's not a "problem", you are surviving, you are doing what works for you, lets try and find something else that works for you. [Derwydd]
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2003-03-24 15:14:04 |
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N/A
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Jahh forhelvede.. sikke mange godt digt.. men ikke eneste om mig.. Hmmm jeg stoler ikke på nogen lige nu.... Mit liv er ikke lige gud´s egen opfindelse, og jeg hader mig selv mere ind jeg nogen sinde har gjordt...Mange mennesker har pisset på mig, når jeg havde det dårligt, og det er jeg rent faktisk rigtig træt af... Detfor stoler jeg næsten ikke på nogen lige nu Undskyld kay.. du ved jeg elsker dig Knuzz Monica [Monica]
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2003-03-09 04:35:45 |
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Answer to Comment
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I want to talk to you too. There is a place for all in the real world! There are those who would let you think that there is no place for you, they are the ones who are lost themselves, but, a place there is for all who live. E-mail me Shtang20H@netscape.net [Anonymous]
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2003-01-27 08:36:12 |
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Fake Human
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hey its seem like maybe you could use some advice well everyone here at mydeardiary could any ways i have an advice column that is always open to you anytime you need to get your feelings out. The email advice address is askkayz_24 @yahoo.com alright im not saying that hey you need advice and that i know your whole life situation but just in case okay. I talk in totally sentince form well give it a try ~clowey [SuNsPrInGeLeTs]
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2003-01-25 16:54:58 |
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ERROR /BAD COMMAND
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If someone could show you out of the dark and pain and into the light of life, would you really be willing to follow? This question is not to be taken lightly, be 100% honest with yourself and if you are willing, open your mind and maybe I can help. I'll be back to see your answer. I hope you realize what a talent for poetry you have. [Anonymous]
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2003-01-24 17:14:46 |
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Peace Of Mind
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Emotions can take over a person so quickly. All these emotions you feel...I can relate to. I also write to let my emotions out. It's nice to be able to browse through these diaries and just be able to read things like that. [misused]
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2003-01-24 13:38:26 |
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The Me Within ****
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Wow. I'm totally feeling your poem. I mean, it's all so...real. I have felt the same way, and it's like I couldn't have become the woman I am right now, without having to go through all of that. [misused]
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2003-01-24 13:34:48 |
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N/A
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Very relative. I fully understand how you feel. [abbieslife]
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2003-01-24 03:40:44 |
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A Mountain To Climb
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Hey søde, læste dit entry ting om Sophie(sp?) og det var sødt:) Håber du får skrevet ngt mere snart om ik andet så bare et alm DB entry.. Knus Miw [AngelBeautyoO]
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2003-01-21 12:34:58 |
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AS IF !!!!
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sometimes you just have to give a damn about yourself, and forget other people and their problems, because you aint going to fix anything by just helping others, you need to help yourself as well :D well stalk ya later [Adorn Filthy Orchids]
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2003-01-15 15:39:06 |
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HATE!!!!!!
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-Where there is pain, I wish you peace and mercy. -Where there is self-doubting, I wish you a renewed confidence in your ability to work through it. -Where there is tiredness, or exhaustion, I wish you understanding, patience, and renewed strength. -Where there is fear, I wish you love, and courage. [ashleybegood]
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2003-01-14 15:12:43 |
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HATE!!!!!!
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i love this angst poemits awesome and i love your name tristania i love that band, well core poem and it seems i have a new person to stalk well, indeed i will stalk ya later [Adorn Filthy Orchids]
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2003-01-14 15:09:39 |
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Dungeon Of Love
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Its good - but hey u already know that;) Love [Bi Gurl Pro Ana]
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2003-01-14 10:34:41 |
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Let me sleep
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Hey gurl... Just wanted to thank u... Im glad that u practically kno everything bout me - and if theres anything u want to know, just read miw, oOosuper girloOo or this one LOL - what im trying to say is that i want u to kno me... better than aneone if u want to and urealways welcum to ask! love [Bi Gurl Pro Ana]
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2003-01-13 16:43:31 |
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A b****'s tale
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Det ville være synd at sige man misunder dig dit liv. Men du er aldrig alene, til trods det kan føles sådan til tider. Herude i det mørke helvede, også kaldet virkeligheden, sidder der en, der faktisk tænker på dig og holder af dig. [Doomie]
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2003-01-13 15:33:15 |
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The best of friends =)
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Gurl u got me speechless... im really touched and no words could ever express how i feel about u... Thats how important u are to me... I love u - now and forever! [Bi Gurl Pro Ana]
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2003-01-13 11:38:23 |
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Sinister Balcony
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Baby this is really good! Uve got talent so never stop writing!!!! [oOoSuper GirloOo]
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2003-01-13 10:55:38 |
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I am just one flaky b****
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That is just life... No way to deny it........ [Anonymous]
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